Writings of Recovery

A Letter to Myself.

This is a letter from my older, healed self to my recovering, current self.

Hello sweet girl-

I am sitting here watching you trudge along. You are tired; it is hard. But, think back to all the times you have conquered hard, and have become stronger and wiser for it. Keep going.

There is still so much fear clouding up your path. Fear is a liar. It is an illusion that appears bigger and more solid than it actually is. Remember this. If you can remember this, you can walk our path in clarity and in confidence.

I see you.

I hear you.

I know you.

Know this: you make it. You make it.

It won’t be perfect. You will never rise above being human. But you make it.

I wish you could see who I am today. The creases of trauma, fear, and anxiety have softened into lines of laughter, love, peace, and joy. I am safe and secure in myself and no longer second-guess who I am. I know who I am and I communicate that to others well. Can you believe it? BELIEVE IT!

While you figure out your beliefs and values, know that I have been walking in them for a while now. It feels great. It’s not always easy, but it is always good. Trust me on this. Keep doing what you are doing. Even when it is hard, Higher Power and I will keep routing you to me. Trust us. Everything you need is here.

A life of recovery strips away the distortions and lies that disease relies on to thrive, Insteat of focusing on resentments, hashing the same story over and over, return again and again every day to recovery, to find what is real. One day at a time.

What is real?

-The sound of the ocean at King Tides.

-Laughing over an inside joke with a beloved friend.

-Finally opening that book you’ve been waiting to read.

-The satisfaction of a long walk.

These are the things worth pursuing. These are treasures more precious than the worries haphazardly flung at you. Decide which is worth your energy.

Focus on your precious present. The moments and memories with those we love, where each one knows without question how much they are loved by us.

It’s hard to see the path ahead, but if you stop for a moment and look behind you, see how far you have come! I am so proud of you!

Fear is not an enemy. Do not give it that much power. Greet it and let it sit for a while. Then you stand up and keep walking towards the life we are creating for ourselves.

The view is stunning from where I stand. Look around as you move ahead. Don’t miss this journey. It’s amazing. You are amazing. We are amazing. Be amazed.

With so much love and gratitude,

your older, healed self.