Writings of Recovery

I began with a few deep breaths.

The deep breaths brought up a few tears. I checked in to see what was the source of the tears. 

The source was pain.

I lifted this pain to Higher Power and said, “I give you my pain”.

In the past, when I lifted something up to HP, it would be coupled with shame and guilt. This time, there was no shame or guilt, and I did not form the question, “will you take this from me?”

I gave it to HP, because I have come to realize that HP is already waiting to take it from me.

I don’t need to ask permission. I don’t need to do anything other than surrender whatever I am willing to surrender to my HP.

I then started to ask HP what was the source of the pain. Another awareness came that I have already analyzed and over analyzed whatever it is/was. Pain as it is was to be released to HP. Nothing more. Nothing less.

The rest of the time was spent sitting with HP, bathing in the instrumental music provided, and breathing deeper.