Writings of Recovery

Today, while walking the beach, I was listening to instrumental music. I found myself listening to a song titled, ‘I Surrender’, and began singing the lyrics to it.  Because it was instrumental music, I was singing alone with no other artists providing the lyrics. I was not following anyone else’s lead to sing what was to be sung in what way. 

A few awarenesses:

-This beautiful song was embedded in my heart, but had not been sung in years. Yet it was the perfect song to sing that represented the state of my heart in that moment.

CHORUS: I surrender…I surrender…I want to know You more… I want to know You more…..

I felt the pleasure of my Higher Power singing to my HP alone, outside of others influence. Recognizing the beauty of The One to The One. How deep, personal, and intimate it can be. 

-This was a part of my faith journey… to sift… to discover who my Higher Power is.  And an awareness of how much I kept worship as an external, routine thing. 

Yet, on this day, the music and words sank deep and infused all of me, not just my head, and I was able to receive this worship song wholly and then pour it back out to my Higher Power wholly.