Writings of Recovery

What am I doing to get out of this moment? Escape.

This moment is hard. I am feeling overwhelmed, (although I am in denial and don’t realize it.)  If I am in conversation with someone, my mind wanders and their words become background noise. I disconnect from my world around me, including those whom I love the most, and dull myself/senses through my addiction.  I avoid the hard conversations and anything that takes me out of my comfort zone.  Security is key.

What am I doing to get out of this moment? Embrace.

This moment is hard. I am feeling aware of my emotions, positive and negative.  If I am in conversation with someone, my mind stays present and tries to understand their perspective, even when/if it differs from mine.  I stay connected to the world around me, especially with those I love the most, and I take care of myself/senses through walking the 12 steps every single moment of every single day. Addiction is no longer a tool of escape. I have embraced a different set of tools, the tools of recovery. I do not shy away from the hard conversations, communicating my needs/wants clearly and in a healthy manner.  As I focus on reality and address the hard things directly, fear, resentments, and anger transform to love, gratitude, and peace. I embrace this moment as a lesson in recovery and add it to my spiritual toolbelt. Growth happens.