Writings of Recovery

ME: How many times have I said, “Higher Power, I give you my all…”, excepppptttt for this…and this…and this…to surrender in word, but not in deed. Why? Why do I trust my will over yours? 

BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW YOU!

I want to see and hear you clearly. Remove the preconceived notions of who I think you are and reveal to me who you really are.  Prime my heart to receive what you have to say to me. Give me grace where there is struggle and doubt. Help me to trust in you and in myself in discerning your truth.

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HP: Thank you for coming to me today. It is always a joy to spend time with you! I am always with you. Remember this. Remember this! I am bigger than your doubts. Keep doing this work and you will be able to find me. I am easy to find. Keep seeking me in the places that are easier for you to find me. You will then come to find me the places where it is harder. We are journeying together. Remember.

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ME: I feel guilty that I cannot make you my everything right now. There is no middle ground. You are all or nothing.

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HP: I am your everything already, even if you don’t realize it. I am big enough to be everything and hold space for your uncertainties and doubts of who I am, and who you are. I like this correpondence we are having together. Keep it up. I am here.